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This past weekend was simply amazing.

On Friday, I went out to eat with Emily Marie and her beautiful mother at Empress of China. Her mommy paid for me, ayee. So like, we wanted to go see Saw 3D, but the movie theatre people were being extra anal and wouldn't believe me when I said I'm 17because I don't have a license. #getouttaherebro So we walked around Irving Mall (bleh) to kill sometime and attempt to enjoy our first real Friday night of freedom from the wrath of Mr. Duff. The last two games were on Thursdays, but I didn't go to school either of the following Fridays, soooo... :P

On Saturday, I went with Alisha and Elizabeth to Denise and Jeff's house. Denise took us out to eat at Olive Garden, and then we went to Sam's and Walmart, trying to avoid having to move stuff for Amber and Jairus. Anddd, once we got there, we barely helped; we decided laying in Angel's bed and blasting Jesus music would be more effective. Their new house is definitely in the middle of nowhere. The street it's on, isn't even registered on the GPS. It's super cute though, and perfect for them... even though Walmart is like 17 miles away? (Yeaaaa, that's pretty ridiculous if you ask me. My heart will probably tell you something different though, arghh.) It was really nice to see the Shaw's again. Alisha was all cracked out and with her smokers cough the whole time. Rolling on the floor and stealing ALL the candy; she's too much.

They brought us to church on Sunday morning, and SORRY, but I super did not wanna be there. I was on my phone during bible study for the first time in history. Yea, it was that serious. Service was directed toward the men, so I was really SOL then. And then I had band practice... ugh. We learned "Our God" by Chris Tomlin, and I love that song. I really just cannot understand why I don't enjoy being in praise band. I love Jesus, and I love singing, so I CAN'T SEE THE PROBLEM. My angryface comes on everytime I step on that stage. I never worship up there. Yea, I'll just keep complaining until the circumstances change on their own, ha.

I'm a bad kidd, and I definitely skipped choir practice to spend time with my boo. It's kay, guys! I'll be there next week. Anywho, thaaaaat was funtimes, although I'm not sure how I stayed awake. Mamabear and William took us out to eat at Mexican Inn. Brisket tacos = delicious. Then we went to Ca- Ca-... something. It's a nature store. Really big and really freaking cute. They have a bunch of dead, stuffed animals floating around everywhere: mostly deer but they definitely had an elephant, a tiger, a cougar, and a monkey. I saw some dreamcather earrings... they were hawt. I got "bit" by an evil rabbit (really, Matthew was playing games with a puppet and pinched me). Then we went to Bass Pro Shop and had some sweet nuts xD. We ended up stopping at the sexy shopping center in Las Colinas, and me and my Matthew sat on the benches outside while everyone else shopped around. There's more to it... but you guys wouldn't understand. <3

On a less joyful note: on Tuesday, something bad happened. I exploded on God. It was really just the build up of undealt-with disappointment and confusion over the past two months; the fight had worn me down and out. I scared my love half to death. I'm back to normal now though, I guess. Its more like a standstill, and instead of pushing to move forward, I'm trying to keep from falling backwards. I haven't been reading my bible, but I'm not gonna force it right now. I don't know what else to say, and I don't know what will make this better. I bought a journal in an effort to keep this from happening again, but I can't find the drive to pick up the pen and write. I'm in need of some intense divine intervention.

Today I get to go see Miss Michelle, and then I have to be at the IISD building for some reception crap for this National Acheivement nonsense. I really wish these people would leave me alone. I'm not gonna finalize xD.

Lead Me - Sanctus Real. There's something about that song. "Lead me with strong hands. Stand up when I can't. Dont leave me hungry for love, chasing dreams-- but what about us? Show me you're willing to fight: that I'm still the love of your life..."

Who needs a pony? I have everything I'll ever need and want. It's a month on Wednesday. One down, infinity to go? <3