#bloop

Bro, my life has been on absolute crack this past week. I wish I were kidding.

Last Wednesday I was so hype for church because I knew the song list was like extra powerful. And then I get there and people didn't show up and the song list was altered and I was devastated. More like freaking angry. I can't for the life of me understand why some people don't get as excited to minister as I do. Ridiculous. So basically I really almost ran away and went to big church, because I was that upset! The only thing that brought me back to reality was that one of the younger ones, Chelsie, ran up to me and said, "Church is about to start, Crystal! Where are you going?" True story.

Duh, I'm glad I stayed. Service was powerful regardless. Andddddd, I'd like to announce that my wife is back for the summer. :DDD

Senior breakfast and awards on Friday was like extra good and sweet, and I'm kind of surprised about that. The breakfast was alright, but the company was even greater. Chris, Candace, and Jehwet made that a good time fersure. Not to mention how cute my dress was :) It's like winding down, guys. My time in high school is about to be up, and I seemed to have been reminded of that at senior breakfast.

Awards was fun because Meg and I were harassing Chris the whole time. BAHAHAHA. We were tickling him, and he grabbed my hand in a fit of anger and like, stared at it for a second, and then slammed it into the chair in front of me. It hurt, but at the same time, I was about to die laughing. Anddd to top it all off, I got a certificate for Acadec, a medal for "Who's Who" in family and counseling sciences, anddd a plaque for being a National Achievement semi-finalist. That medal is the cutest thing ever. It's a Macarthur, TX logo :3

After awards, me, Chelsea, and Jehwet dipped out and went to eat at Cheddar's with Chelsea's mom and Candace's mom. Candace wasn't cool enough to come with us. That dork. Mannnnn, I'm so glad I got to spend that time with Chelsea. I hadn't talked to her since like middle school, and let's just say I've fersure been missing out! :D

Prom was on Saturday! THIS ONE BOY, was extra fine. And it didn't help that I've been in love with him since like sixth grade. I'ma leave it at that though. Theo also looked pretty darn gorgeous if I do say so myself. I had such a nice time. Me and my friends looked simply beautiful, and we got our jigg on. What more can a senior ask for? I felt like a princess, realtalk. After prom wasn't that exciting but it's okay. Sheyla won a Kindle. Swag :D

I got home from After Prom around 5:30 and accidentally dozed off. I meant to stay up so that I wouldn't be so dead when it came time to move around. It's kay though. God woke me up right on time. Gosh I was tired. Bible study was good <3 I don't know what happened during worship but my spirit completely freaked out. I was worshiping like normal, and then "Hosanna" came on and RIGHT when the chorus hit I started crying uncontrollably. Weird right? I looked up the literal translation for hosanna, and it means "Save us now." Yup, still don't have any clue what that was about but I'm sure God thought it was beautiful.

Blahh. We had outreach after service and I soo wasn't feeling it because I was cranky. I saw that some of the other youth like Alisha and Connor were really into it though, and that made me happy.

Wanna know something funny? I woke up on time fer school yesterday and decided to stay home instead xD I needed that though. And I got my spanish project done. It's cute.

Bruhh. Last night I died and came back to life... or something. My two most valued female friends are having boy troubles. And talking to them about their struggles took me right back to mine. I really felt hopeless last night, and like God had forsaken me. Just like the old days, ha. Now that I'm feeling better, I realize God let me feel that again because I was starting to forget all that I'd learned about pain and the human heart. It was evident in the way I'd responded to one of my friend's poor methods at dealing with the hurt. I cried myself to sleep last night, but I don't think it was for me.

Maybe it was for the whole world. Yes, I like a boy. Yes, I think about a boy. No, that boy does not like me. No, that boy doesn't think about me. But you know what? I got SO much other stuff to be worried about-- things that actually matter! And I just wanna see God's face.

This morning I was still suck on sad, but then half way through the day I remembered that I'm too blessed to care. I care about what God's working through all these storms, I just don't care that the storms must come. You feel me?

I had some interesting conversations with Jehwet, Kimbra (I love her), and Candace today. BLOOP. I'm already super excited fer church tomorrow, but I'ma stop because this is clearly the longest blog ever.

My God is GOOD. Shout it out! :D
May the peace of God which surpasses all understanding guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.