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Bro. How good is the God we serve? Words can't even begin to describe His majesty.

Last Thursday was pretty rough. As much as I've grown in my walk with God, and just as young adult, I still have so many questions. There are all these questions and no one has any of the answers; I certainly don't have them. But I feel like I'm supposed to have them, because they are relatively important to me. And so I felt bad about myself. I cried all day at school, and my self esteem was just in the ground. I felt like I was disappointing the person I was meant to be. I felt so much less of the person I thought I was becoming. In fact, I felt like a bad person.

And then on Sunday the "Revelation Song" came on, and I really did have a revelation. "Jesus, Your name is power, breath, and living water: such a marvelous mystery." I'm about to get all emotional telling you guys how God moved during that song, ha. The name of Jesus is power. And although my knowledge (or lack there of) is often times inadequate, it's okay, because in Jesus, I have everything I'll ever need. His ways are mysterious, yet marvelous indeed. I'm not complaining. I'm mostly rejoicing.

School is such a drag. I'm just here, and I'm not even sure why.

Last weekend I went to The Mission exposure thingy with Alisha. I had such a blast. On Friday there was a sermon preached by my new friend Joseph Leisey, and he BROUGHT the word. He's so cute, and anointed and just... chill. Too bad he's 25, giggle. We played ultimate football and I so hate sweating, but that was amazingly fun. On Saturday we got to participate in their Riverside ministry, where we played with the kids in the park and then put on a skit for them about loving your neighbor as yourself. We had a bonfire in Pastor Charlie's backyard, and chilled a little bit, and then had worship. Then me, Magen, April, and Alisha went back to the new Mission House and played Just Dance.

Pastor Charlie's children are so precious. He has a beautiful family, and that's just what he deserves (:

I met so many great people there. April and I had a much needed heart to heart. You can already guess what about, lol. She used a certain term to describe my situation and... it's far, so we won't talk about that. xD I knew how in love I am with my wife, but getting to spend all the time with her REALLY helped me know I picked the right one. I started missing her like... one hour after we left.

There's something enchanting about being submerged in God's work 24/7. This is something best experienced, and not explained.

Teen Talent is this weekend. I'm actually really excited about this. I get to see everyone from the Mission again, and I get to chill with the band for an entire day. Worship last night was awesome, if I do say so myself. I'm so proud of everyone, and how they're allowing things to happen as they may. Krystal, Kendra, Bree, Ander, Nissa... man, they make my heart so warm.

As much as I've complained about God never talking to me, I SURE am hardheaded now that I can hear clearly. That's gotta stop. It's not just affecting me anymore /:

Things are looking up for me. And "we'll take it to the sky, past the moon, through the galaxy." You know how I know? Cuz God is leading it all the way <3