Matters of the Heart

I've been singing this song like your life depended on it.

"When the rain is blowing in your face, and the whole world is on your case, I could offer you a warm embrace to make you feel my love. When the evening shatters and the stars appear, and there is no one there to dry your tears, I could hold you for a million years to make you feel my love. I know you haven't made your mind up yet, but I would never do you wrong. I've known it form the moment that we met; no doubt in my mind where you belong. I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue, I'd go crawling down the avenue: know theres nothing that I wouldn't do to make you feel my love. The storms are raging on the rolling sea, and on the highway of regret. The winds of change are blowing wild and free. You ain't seen nothing like me yet. I could make you happy, make your dreams come true; nothing that I wouldn't do... go to the ends of the earth for you, to make you feel my love." -Adele

Remember in the beginning when I simply wanted you out of my system? It's amazing how things have progressed since then, even though I'm the only one that's changed. It's going to be difficult to put this into words.

Last night I went to sleep thinking of you, and when I woke up you were the first person on my mind. And although I haven't seen you in too long, it hasn't effected how much I think of you; it's always been this way. I miss you terribly. I miss seeing your smile. I miss hugging you and trying to resist the urge of staying there forever and melting in your arms. I miss that dazed feeling I get when we let go. I miss gazing into your eyes. I miss the moment I realize you noticed the expression on my face. I miss having to look away before my feelings slip out of my mouth.

I could talk about you all day, since I can't talk to you all day. And I love your company. I just want you around me: in the middle of the day when I'm running errands, and in the middle of the night when my heart screams I love you. My whole demeanor changes when you're with me. I wish we were closer. I wish I could protect you from every evil thing in this world: the fake friends, the heart-breaks, the upsets, the sadness, the hurt, the pain, the loss. I wish you'd let me be your everything: your best friend, your confidant, your lover, your pride, your joy.

The feelings I have for you are so unconditional, and so selfless... it's crazy. Is it okay to say I'm in love with you, because that's how you make me feel. Unless it's not okay, then just forget about it...